I thought perhaps i should just wait....
wait to see you agn....
every single time i walk around shopping malls,
i look around me,
hoping to see a familiar face,
a face that belongs to you...
just hoping, just maybe,
you would appear before my eyes..

everytime i see a bus or get on one,
i look around me,
remembering that day when i saw u,
hoping once again,
you would be there,
appearing right in front on me,
just like that day.

every camp i go starting from level camp,
i kept wishing and wishing that you were there.
coz those 2 camps hold my favourite memories in them...
the 2 memories of u talking to me once again.
i think i remember every single word u said.
what about you?
still remember any of them?
i don't think so.

i keep thinking and thinking,
dreaming and dreaming.
all those thoughts were about you.
bt u were happily dreaming bout those 2 gurls...
one that u like,
the another that you love.
she dumped you so many times.
and for that,
i wished i could scold her..
telling her that if she didn't want you,
dun break ur heart.
dun toy wif ur feelings.
at least nt the same way as how u broke mine..
my hearts breaking.
it really is.
it's killing me..

did you ever know how happy i was?
how happy i was when you told me ur ex was jealous,
jealous because of 4 simple words,
"i still have you"
so simple words carved in my heart.

did you know how happy i was?
how happy i was when you told me i was still your friend?
i don't really believe in those words though,
but i loved those words so damn bloody hell much...
wish you could know
but u nvr will..

thosand and 1 times i tried to tell myself,
stop thinking of you.
coz u never will be mine...
it's pointless loving you so dearly.
i keep telling myself this.
but my useless brain wouldn't listen.
it keep recalling things u said.
that voice of urs,
keep playing through my mind.
playing again and again.
that voice which read my name,
on that very day,
in front of the bubble tea shop.
the things we chatted online,
that screenshot i took.
i love you so damn bloody hell much...

i tell myself
"as long as you are happy, i am too."
but i never ever was...
coz u weren't mine.
coz i didn't stand a place in you.
coz i couldn't say i love you with your name at the back
coz of so many reasons.
but i never breath a word...

did you know that letter i got when i bought the bbt?
that was the very first letter of ur name....
u didn't know did u?
how happy as excited i got...

when u appeared right in front of me,
my heart just kept jumping up and down..
i was so so happy...
i wish you were to......
but u never will.....
will you?