on that night you talked to me,
my heart was smiling as bright as it possibly could...
you started that few seconds chat..
but on the very next day, you avoided me...
as far as you possibly could...why?
i don't understand....
i don't get it....

i wish i could just talk to you,
talk to you with me starting it..
talk to you with you replying..
but like what i said and felt,
im just a coward in love.

people say that love is like magic.
but magic is just an
ILLUSION.
this illusion of mine,
will never get to the both sided part..
it will only stay at that one sided love...
that one sided part of mine....

without being able to see you,
im srsly missing you..
but you would never ever feel the same.
seeing you talk to those gurls you fancy,
seeing you look at them the way i look at you.
my heart hurts so much, so so much..

when i saw you on the bus,
that short 20 minutes meant everything to me.
but what was it to you?
i don't even think you saw me....
coz im nothing to you...
not even a subsitude...
time and time again you say you don't hate me,
you say that im your friend..
but from my side, i still feel that you treat me as an enemy..
my heart feels the pain.
but you don't feel the same way..

i feel that im so stupid...
waiting for about 5 years now,
im still unwilling to give up..
every single little bit of thing that happened,
i think i still remember.
but i don't think you remembered any single one..
why do i love you?
i don't even know..
since that very day P5 camp,
i started to love you...
perhaps before that, it was just a crush...

every time,
i tried to remember the times we talked,
i only know of 2 times this year...
smsing you....
you only give me those very very short replys....
i just wish you could understand my pain....
i might be smiling on my face...
but im truely crying inside...
don't you understand?
i wonder when you will...

i always be here waiting for you,
waiting with all my heart,
waiting with all the patience i have...
i dont think i will love a second guy the way i love you...
coz, till now, i never had..

count the number of times i wrote your name on my books...
i guess, its uncountable...
count the number of times i was wishing for you to talk to me,
for you to be mine,
i only can say, a zillion times...
in any case,
i will be right here waiting...
just in case you need me...
coz i love you, i really do...